Hey guys I haven’t blogged in quite a while…I’ve definitely had so many things bottled up for some months now & didn’t feel it was necessary to share since it’s best to keep things private but in order to make a difference in someone’s life sometimes you share your thoughts to see perhaps someone who has been in a similar situation or can relate may just need to see a friend or acquaintance blog about it.
The picture above is a very nice quote that doesn’t necessarily have to be one thing…like it says letting go of guilt, anger, love, loss, or even betrayal from someone is hard to let go of. We all make changes in our lives to adjust to the situations we are dealt with. Many times if we don’t let things go whether it is by forgiving others or forgiving ourselves or just realizing nothing good will come of bottling emotions in and keeping grudges…they become the burden of everyday and they can impact our health…both mentally and physically.
I feel we each have our own story and no matter how much we try to conceal the flaws of our decisions or the things people have done to us…we cannot fake being perfect just to be given approval by others among us. I have definitely come to realization that many things I claimed to take too much pride in or maybe kept a blind eye to different situations definitely came back to bite me. But it was all for the best and I needed it to be now to finally understand the world around me in a mature perspective and deal with things I never thought I would have to.
That’s the funny thing…most of us expect things to be a certain way or people to behave a certain way we don’t see it coming when we see those people for what we could not expect…because maybe we didn’t want to ever believe those things.
Most of you at this point in reading must be somewhat curious as to what big changes possibly could have me writing all of this stuff? “Oh no is this girl okay…poor thing must have gone through some crap” or “I’m sure whatever it is, she probably brought it upon herself” are possible ways some of you reading may be thinking…
Whether you are right or wrong…in reality it doesn’t really make a difference to me at this point…I know when it comes down to it…we are always going to be somewhat accountable for the people we decide to ‘fall in love with’ or ‘make best friends with’ or ‘learn to deal with’ and sometimes you get good results sometimes not.
One thing I think is the hardest to question myself is…if I could go back and change the way I handled a particular situation should I have? Sometimes we go crazy thinking thoughts like this…because we know that if we didn’t react a particular way to a situation things could have gone in a direction that would be completely different from anything we are facing now. At the same time…we also could tell ourselves No…I needed that situation…no matter how hard it was for me to deal with whatever anger, betrayal, or change involved…my lessons can never be taken back and the situation now is most likely a better one for the person I have changed into now.
Guys…change isn’t always bad…sometimes it is remarkably good…sometimes it takes time to see it…or for others to see it (who really care if others need to see it though right?) but sometimes you have to eliminate the things you learned were bad for you in particular & hold on to the things you know give your life purpose and meaning no matter what obstacles have gotten in the way.
This sounds much more positive now right? It should! I am not writing all this to be emo or make people feel bad for any reason…I am just sharing very vaguely something from my experience that I feel great to share with you all. I had a rocky start to the year and at this point now in April I seriously feel very accomplished in the way I have handled everything God had planned for me. Yes I acknowledge many people aren’t going to think and handle things the way I did for myself…most of us act out and do very crazy things when we are not in the right state of mind and we first of all blame others for the way we are behaving…I see how easy it is to have done that…trust me I could’ve done so much to attempt to distract myself…but deep down I couldn’t because for me and my situation I realized that wouldn’t have solved anything. I would end up fooling myself & so I chose the tougher route and gave myself time and much alone time to sort out the pieces that were all scrambled. Going through something during a time when you didn’t have any form of support or maybe fake support I can tell you is one of the hardest feelings in life…but ultimately it was chosen for me and I am so glad to realize HEY! I did it…I literally made it out of the situation looking back now seeing man…I did so well I should give myself an award lol…yes it sounds cheesy you know I don’t mind…we should always give ourselves credit when it is due :-)
Okay this is becoming super duper lengthy…I applaud anyone still reading…but anyways everyone I am doing well…I know many people asked and thought no but really how are you doing? for the past few months…I say the best answer is…Time is surely a great thing…for each day is better than the next and it is all about attitude! I have made some exciting new career changes as well but I’ll save that for another time…that is one thing that always helps any negative situation in life…focusing your energy in all that is good & contributing to your success in life.